Stop. Now think about it.

Choices.

That's what life really is all about isn't it? Everyday in life, you face hundreds, even thousands of choices, ranging anywhere from; Superficial: "What should I wear today?" or "What should I have for lunch?" to something meaningful: "How am I going to make an impact today?"

Everything you do in life is a choice. Sometimes it may not be yours, while at other times, you have all the power to make your own decisions. You can also choose how you want to feel. When life gives you lemons, do you just take it and do nothing about it? Fuck no, you go and make lemonade or throw the fucking lemons back at life. Never once in your life do you have to feel down. But why is it so hard to make a decision that will obviously keep you happy? Why is it when life brings you down, you stay down when there are so many opportunities to get back up? I wish I knew why too... I'm generally a very optimistic person, but I'm not perfect. I make mistakes, and I too get trapped in this "mind trap" so-to-speak.

I believe that every person that we meet have some sort of impact on our lives. Remember it is our choice to even begin the friendly relationship in the first place. In some way or another, the two lives can become intertwined with a simple "Hi, I'm ____. Nice to meet you." You can choose whether or not you want to continue with that relationship or leave it at that. Of course, people take it to a much deeper and more intimate level, which we call love. Whether it be a good or bad relationship, there will always be something to take out of it. It is up to you to figure out what it is in that relationship that's important and that you can take in for the future.

So up to this point, I have made many decisions in my life thus far. There will be many, many more in the days, weeks, and years to come. I don't know if this "road" I'm choosing to take is the right one for me, but I will try to look back with no regrets, but rather with content that I have made it this far. Although some choices with people and things that I have made have not been the best, I still am grateful for the opportunity to even make the choice to begin with.

I wanna go up here again and just admire the setting.

Sometimes just wish I had a day away from reality. <3

7.13.2010

Weee. Another not so much sense making blog (and sentence).

Why is it that we have all our little so-called "addictions," the little things that we can't seem to live without - or perhaps we feel that we need? We're so wired to our material objects and our possessions whether it being our family and friends (not like owning them but more like having them there for you) or our ideas even. It always feels so hard to let go of them, perhaps why they're our addictions. It's extremely tough to break an addiction, just ask somebody who tried to quit smoking. To even get to the level where you can view it as more as something there rather than something that needs to be there is much harder.

We live in such a twisted society. Forreals though. I notice how many people still walk around trying to act all hard. What is it about the human psyche or at least American society that emphasizes that guys need to be all tough? Sure, there's things like testosterone and biological shit. But beyond that, is there a reason to pick a fight with somebody who accidentally bumped into you? We see it everywhere though; in the movies and even in real life "tough" guys pick fights for no damn reason. Ego-hungry much? That just leads back to the previous paragraph. We place so much value on things that do not exist or need not exist. People create inflated egos (perhaps to compensate for something else that they do not have). What good does it do other than create problems? Yeah, you'll get the attention you'll want with an ego like that, but is that what you really want? It's just like how we place so much value on the little pieces of paper we call money. The society that we live in is based purely on them bills, so what choice do we have but to accept that which society has given us.

That just goes back to my last post where I wonder if freedom is really free? With so many ideals in our culture, sometimes just gotta ask, is anything really free?

“Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.”
- Mahatma Ghandi

He speaks the truth.